Don’t you try to explain all the words that you’ve made for love
But you can’t even pray ‘cause the words make you frail and hollow
Don’t you cry to yourself just to feel like someone who’s hit bottom
But you can’t run away ‘cause the hole that remains will follow

Don’t you care just enough
Don’t you feel your heart stop
But you can’t know what you want
But what matters now is enough

It’s a long, a long way down on your own
It’s a long, a long way out
It’s a long, a long way down on your own
It’s a long, a long way out

Don’t you sleep in the day just to dream it away for good
But I know you’re afraid ‘cause the best that you gave was not enough

Don’t you care just enough
Don’t you feel your heart stop
But you can’t know what you want
But what matters now is enough

It’s a long, a long way down on your own
It’s a long, a long way out
It’s a long, a long way down on your own
It’s a long, a long way out

I felt the smooth wooden floor beneath my knees, and then the palm of my hands, and then it was pressed against the skin of my cheek. I hoped that I was fainting, but, to my disappointment, I didn't lose consciousness. The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface.